Hurdles everywhere ... but for what?

Sometimes I wonder, "why can't anything just be easy?" Recently, my desktop completely crashed and I had to send it in for repair, hence the hiatus from this blog. At the same time, my dog ate my iPad pen, which I used to write my poetry and dabble in other artistic impulses. My son David broke his arm several weeks ago. The night following his cast removal, he suffered two scratches across his face when my animals were startled by a noise and a shadow in the night. One of my older sons, Jacob, recently came to stay with us for a couple weeks due to a water issue at his house and brought his own 2 cats with him, which has impacted the dynamics of our animal kingdom. I wish for peace, strength, and inspiration, but I seem to be experiencing disruption, hurdles, and a creative drought. When I really reflect though, this is a lesson ... I have to find peace in every day, whether in a corner of the house, for a moment, or with my headphones - I am responsible for my own peace, regardless what is going on around me. In order to build strength, I must exercise it - through challenges, which have been prevalent lately. I must exercise my own strength in all domains of wellness (physical, mental/emotional, social, and spiritual) if I want to become stronger overall. Finally, as for my creative drought ... well I believe there is inspiration everywhere - I see it and I feel it - I just have been unable to put it into words recently. I have to accept that, for now. I must accept the disruption, the noise, in my life. I must make an effort to build my strength and my resilience in the midst of ongoing challenges, and I must see and appreciate the beauty of every day in order to really experience the peace, strength, and inspiration I so desire.

The same principles apply to my NFT journey. Recently, I was hosting one of my Resiliency Rooms. I was talking about my background in dance, my love for singing, and the countries in which I lived while in the military. Someone in the space expressed excitement about my passion for life and all the adventures I had experienced. Ironically, I have focused a lot of my own time reflecting on the negative experiences associated with those memories. I was reminded in that moment, that I have lived a life unlike any other. This is my life, my journey, and my story. There is so much good there, which is where I should focus the most of my thoughts. When I do revisit my past, I get to choose the moments and memories on which I linger. While there are times to revisit the pain for healing, growth, or other self-work -- revisiting the triumphs, the joy, and the love that I have experienced is time much better spent. My NFT journey is about so much more than producing poetry. I am deprogramming my mind, reinvigorating my passion, rewriting my story, and reclaiming my power. The hurdles I face along the way are exercises of my own will, determination, and resilience to live my truth. In this experience, unlike so many others of my past, I am enjoying genuine connections and friendships with people who uplift, inspire, and care about others. What a beautiful experience it is, to find people around the world who care about each other, wish to make the world better, and are driven to create beautiful art along their own journeys.

I must confess, it is not ALL positive. There are serious issues which need addressed in the NFT space, in Web3, just like the world as a whole, but I am gathering my own strength and power so that I can speak my truth and drive positive change in my own way. I will find my calling in this space along my journey, but for now, I am focusing on this awakening ... this path... to find myself, in my own way, in my own time. I am finally grateful for all that I am.